will let go at any price.

i've been ignoring you lately.
i've been fully aware of it, actually.
i walked past you and veronica.
'hey veeee' i said to her.
'hi chris' you said.
'....hi' i said unconvincingly.
'you don't even look at me!' you yelled.
i was walking away and turned around and looked at you.
'what did I DO?!?' you questioned.
'nothing, just forget it.'
i turned around and kept walking.
ten feet behind me you screamed 'i love you!'
i didnt turn around, just said 'uh-huh...'
you screamed again 'I LOVE YOUU!'
'RIGHT!' i yelled back.
i wanted to say it back more than anything, and less than anything.
i'm resisting you.

even if i did say it back, we'd be speaking the same words to each other that meant completely different things.
you love me?
...you dont adore me and you dont think im crazy amazing.
you don't think about me every second.
you say a lot of things you dont mean.
from 'i love you' to 'i've never felt this way before' to 'we're going out next year, okay?'
yeah...whatever happened to that?
i remember you said 'so i was thinking about what it would look like when we're together.'
i asked what you meant and you said, 'lots of black'
......i think i've pulled that off pretty amazingly so far.
especially today, all black, with some blue..the colors of a bruise, wouldnt you say?
i've got the black but thats only half the deal.
you're the other half.

i just read all above this...it's pretty confusing with all the quotations, but oh well.

'if you leave, don't leave now, please don't take my heart away. and if you leave, don't look back...i'll be running the other way'


.......sorry i've been writing short blogs.
bye.


PS. we could live like jack and sally.