things are different lately.
the break from the rain is actually good.
the weather is perfect, actually.
it's sunny, cool, warm, breezy, glowing all at once.
i leave my windows open.
i feel cut off from everyone i know.
and it's tearing me apart.
sorry i broke the rules.
if josh hates me for telling the truth,
then honestly,
i don't care.
mom bought me Water for Elephants and Kite Runner.
i'm excited to read them.
her birthday is tomorrow.
lately, there's more to life than looking for things you apparently "need".
right now i'm taking in what i've got.
like the weather!
veronica called me a homewrecker after i explained the whole situation to her.
after she saw my reaction she said "it's okay, i am too" and smiled.
she's so grand.
all i want to do right now is find myself and treat others nicely because most of them deserve it.
the others (reese) can still treat me like a piece of glass,
but trust me when i say this,
it's not getting in the way of the sun.
because i've crawled out of the darkness and only the sun can melt this all away.
"everything will be perfect someday."
despite my dull words and descriptions and updates,
today is as close to perfect as a day has ever been.
right now.
Someday will be soon.
but you've got Someday in the palm of your hand, allie.
i'll push it all away, just like you can push me.
PS. i think i've found my concrete.
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