PINk.

i want winter to come, so i can snuggle you in my bed and kiss you.
we'd look out of my window and see a flourishing mass of gray spreading side to side of the roof of the sky.
it would heave down water and let every crack in the ground inhale it for hours.
and we'd just cuddle, thinking of how lucky we are to be warm, and feel sorry for all the little snails and bugs and unsheltered life.
it's what i want. pretty much...
and...still think i should know your 'secret'.
have every right for an explanation, but i don't want to write about that....

i'm glad we have plans on my birthday.
this is one of the few birthday's i'm even excited about.
i'm not sure why.
probably because when we're drunk in the movies, we'll be falling all over each other and i can make it seem like you're mine.
because i love you, if you haven't noticed...
you're my everything.
no matter how much i honestly try to not show it lately...
i smile like the cheshire cat when i'm with you.

PS. sorry this blog was readable in two seconds.