first day

i think yesterday was my favorite day of the year, so far...
it couldn't have been more perfect, unless those girls from kelseyville had come down....
or you had come over. maybe.

i spent almost all day inside. i had on my horrid plaid pajamas, some scrounge blue shirt, and my lovely grungy bleach-stained sweater.
i loved every second of it.

i know what you mean. 'today smells like march.'
sometimes i feel like the smells of the air put me in different parts of the world or different parts of the year.
that's how yesterday was.
'it smells like october.'
there's no doubt about it, october is my favorite month of the year.
i think today's the first day of autumn?
i love how everything changes.

anyways. i love looking outside in the middle of the day to just see gray, with pouring rain.
sounds like my personality and taste has a lack of color.
there's a small chance that today could be like that, because i see grey..i also see the sun shining.

yesterday, i went into my room. i turned on my cozy lamp and the little christmas lights hung around my walls.
i pushed play on my ipod, hooked up to my stereo. 'delilah.'
'mrs. o'
'gravity'
i got on my bed, stood on my knees, and opened up the window all the way.
i put my elbows on my windowsill and looked outside.
the rain gave the air a crisp smell.
it was fresh, like it hasn't rained in forever.
i took deep breaths and let the cool air flow in with the music.
i loved it.
i texted you saying 'lawl. i want you so bad right now.'
you said 'the rain=]'

i can see you everyday and still miss you.
and i really do.

but i don't want you to know.

sorry this blog sucked.

i wish i could go with you to seattle. 'the city known for its rain.'
jealous, pretty much...

sad i dont get to see you.
excited to see blammy still.

i made jello yesterday.
bye.