stepping on stones and burning bridges simultaneously

right now i'm doing my portfolio.

it's so fancy. i'm kind of proud of it.

everyone else's binder is white but mine's black.

for my cover page, i found a photo of the con, erased tegan and sara's names, and dragged it onto Word and typed over it.

chris kyriakos.

right beneath is the title of the album, the con.


wonderful.


the dresden dolls concert is in officially one week.

amanda says her voice is definitely ready, but at the same time it isn't.

her solo album, Who Killed Amanda Palmer, comes out two days after my birthday.


yesterday i went with vinnie and did community service at the senior center. his grandma maggie owns it.

she's so sexy.

right when i walked in late, maggie said "i have a proposition for you. go play piano!"

so for three hours i played piano for the old people. i even made five bucks in the tip jar (vinnies idea)

so fucking glad i memorized billions of songs.

the first song i played: i will follow you into the dark. then i played some more death cab. then some dresden dolls.

then some tegan and sara. then some more death cab. then some more dresden dolls. then some more tegan and sara.

then some improv.



as for the drama bullcrap that completely came out of the blue,

i don't even know and quite frankly i couldn't care less.

one side's asking Where the fuck did this come from and the other side's tugging away and saying Who cares it's not worth it.

the "Who cares one" is more aggressive. so it's winning.

all i can say is that you've met me twice and you dont know how i act in person.

because i honestly don't recall doing anything to act like a victim, except for on here.

and to judge me off something that was never meant to be read (my blogs) is pretty low.

because i came here to feel safe and let go and say what i want, not for it to be backfired in my face.



josh cursed at me and admitted to not liking me.

i wasn't phased because the guy's never met me and i guess it's his loss.

you can tell him i still like him, though.

tell him he's my bff for life.


i'm off. i'm benvolio in romeo and juliet.

it's amazing.


PS/ this blog had terrible flow.



everything is plastic, and everything's sarcastic.