The Kill

i fought the british and i won.

but sometimes it's still really hard to look at your face and not see what i used to love.

and though it kills my strong guard wall to say this, you made today worthwhile.


today was the best you've ever treated me.

i don't even know what it was.

once i put in mr magoriums wonder emporium, that hard-to-get switch turned off.

you were just.. nice.

i could talk to you so easily. we were friends again.

we laughed and just talked about stupid stuff.

you looked at me when you talked.

you looked at me when i talked.

and that really meant the most.

i also made you laugh the hardest i've ever seen you laugh.

i'm sorry our chocolate chip cookie dough tasted like old gum.

"Part of me suspects that I'm a loser, and the other part of me thinks I'm God Almighty"-John Lennon

i couldn't explain how i feel about myself any better.



today was perfect in its own way.

my insecurites melted away once i saw how amazing your smile is.

you left out the door a few minutes ago.

...i want you back in my house.

which isn't good.

Delilah, by the Dresden Dolls.

i'm the girl.




their concerts next month. all ages, thank God. i'm asking mom about the tickets tonight.

what's surprising is they cost a couple more bucks than tegan and sara's.

i'm listening to their new song The Kill, which is going on their new album No, Virginia...

they recorded with a keyboard on this album, which i'm adjusting to the difference. but it sounds really good, i decided,

and cleaner. i think this was also recorded with amanda's shiny new voice, from the surgery she had on her throat-area

because of her voice nodules.

it's actually old and i knew it for a long time, but this is the first recorded version.

No, Virginia.. and their previous album Yes, Virginia...

because No, Virginia contains all of the outtakes and cut songs from the other records.





i am. fucking. stoked. for the next month and a half. and summer.


i love everything.

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