bionic boulders...

another sleepless night.
i cant really blame myself, though. i sleep in waayyy past due time.
sleepless nights are harmful to your.. sleeping patterns?

i don't fucking know.

sometimes i lay in bed with my ipod, and cant remember changing the song to the current track.
sometimes i wonder why in the world Q-Tips are named what they are.
sometimes i wonder how that small black lab can achieve leaping over my fence to knock my dog up.

now all she does is hump me.
naughty freak.

mom's planning to abort bella's babies if she's pregnant..
"they won't be babies yet. just embryos."
whatever those are.
...i called her a baby killer.


reese and veronica magically connect to the song Nineteen.
what they dont know is that i do, too.
i just think they relate to the first line of the song:

"i felt you in my legs, before i ever met you."

they can interpret it as fucking.
a LOT of people do.
but i interpret it as feeling weak in the knees, your legs, they're about to fall out from under you.
it's just not like tegan to all of the sudden write about sex.
especially because the following lines are:

"i feel you in my heart, and i don't even know you.
now we're saying bye."


breanna makes me a little angry.
mostly because she steals caitlin from us all and invites herself down and hardly even talks to us.
one time me her and caitlin were all sitting in robins car waiting for theee parentals to come out of the store.
and i, as usual, was explaining to her the depth of tegan and sara's music and just how overall brilliant they are.
and of course, their music was playing on the cd i had in.
she said "i don't like them, see, i actually like music that has a beat."

i turned on the radio and on came loud screamo music with crashing drums and just overall tone-deaf disaster.
"a beat like THAT," she said.
i turned and looked back at her, and half-snapped "that's not a beat, that's a CLASH."
she didn't say anything.

it's not that i have a high temper...
it's more like not having tolerance for people so ignorant to the world of what's music, and what's not.

i mean i'm no beethoven, i'm the farthest thing from it, i'm unconventional and classical teachings just see me as a foreigner.
but someone who can allegedly point fingers and call something what it's not is just.. upsetting to me.


anyways, i'm excited for the concert.
and camille's best friend gia just moved here from the seattle area.
so i get to see this amazing girl.

actually, truth be told, i saw her like three months ago at the mall.
i was walking around with caitlin and i heard behind me "chriisss, we love yooouuu."
i turned and saw camille and gia.
never got a good look at gia, didn't really speak to her.
i actually thought she lived in like.. windsor or something.


anyways... i'm off like...
myself on a balancing beam?

kfhg;dfg;

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